Is it terrible that I just cannot smile?

Will it be horrible if I played it vile?

I get there’s cheer all around

There’s joy & laughter unbound

I can’t bob my head left to right

To tunes archaic, lyrics too bright

Swapping green for absurd trinklets

Your gold watch or silver anklets

Dinners with those I do not know

And those I do, I wish I did not

So can I take a step away?

Let me be misery & you your way

I am no Grinch but I don’t care

For your parties or other fanfare

May seem terrible that I don’t smile

But I’ll be horrible if I don’t be vile